Managing to Keep Positive
Oct. 26, 2023
I hate calling people "ex", and it's still fresh... so I'll just
say "my close friend" for now... me and my close friend have
luckily been coping together lately, and decided to try and
hangout as usual and not wait too long on it or else things will
start to get more and more scary to reapproach. I'm happy about
this, but it sure is going to hurt at first, like dipping my
toes into water that's too hot or cold.
It should be ok though for the most part, and I'm glad he's in
the process of improving himself I guess? Regarding the reason
why we aren't really a thing anymore. I like to say "for now"
just because thankfully it wasn't a result from us fighting all
the time, falling out of love, or anything like that.
Love is Hard
Oct. 25, 2023
So around September of this year, I had broken up with my
previous boyfriend of 4 years. At around the same time I started
talking to someone who matched my energy entirely, and is the
brother of a long-term friend of mine as well. After a month
however, just last night I was broken up with not from him
falling out of love, or anything on my end. It was the decision
as a result from other personal things, and it hurts like all
hell but I'm glad we're still close friends. I'd be lying if I
said there wasn't the constant thought of wanting to get back
together in the future, but I'm coping in what ways I know how.
I don't really have a whole network/group of friends
unfortunately, so I usually just confide in my mom and sister.