Nov. 1, 2023

So I've been sick for the past several days, had to have time off from work to recover, but I'm getting there... in other news, I've been playing new club penguin lately! It's been really nostalgic to play, and I've been grinding for coins as usual.

I haven't been drawing as much, but I have been doing 3d art, so at least there's that. I've been really bored lately which is funny because you'd think I'd be utilizing all of my time since I've had time off from work, but for the most part I think it's just me kind of adjusting to the new month if anything.

Managing to Keep Positive

Oct. 26, 2023

I hate calling people "ex", and it's still fresh... so I'll just say "my close friend" for now... me and my close friend have luckily been coping together lately, and decided to try and hangout as usual and not wait too long on it or else things will start to get more and more scary to reapproach. I'm happy about this, but it sure is going to hurt at first, like dipping my toes into water that's too hot or cold.

It should be ok though for the most part, and I'm glad he's in the process of improving himself I guess? Regarding the reason why we aren't really a thing anymore. I like to say "for now" just because thankfully it wasn't a result from us fighting all the time, falling out of love, or anything like that.

Love is Hard

Oct. 25, 2023

So around September of this year, I had broken up with my previous boyfriend of 4 years. At around the same time I started talking to someone who matched my energy entirely, and is the brother of a long-term friend of mine as well. After a month however, just last night I was broken up with not from him falling out of love, or anything on my end. It was the decision as a result from other personal things, and it hurts like all hell but I'm glad we're still close friends. I'd be lying if I said there wasn't the constant thought of wanting to get back together in the future, but I'm coping in what ways I know how.

I don't really have a whole network/group of friends unfortunately, so I usually just confide in my mom and sister.